sometimes i just don't know whats happening to me. im just so complicated right now that im laughing my head off. its that serious. i just wish that i had gfs to talk to. Guys are just to simple minded to understand anything about us girls. i feel that they think too little at times. nex semester there will be more freshies coming into our course. and i'll be considered a senior. hah. They will mostly be chinese(malaysians) due to the spm results which just came out a a few weeks ago. So this batch would probably be a year younger than me.
Overall, i feel very alone in this place. i dunno what to say sometimes. why am i feeling like this? maybe i'm just stress. yeah. i think so. last nite i came home from school at midnight. was doing my group assignment. i just really hate it when a problem arise and the person just throws it in ure face and expect you to solve everything. They will be like "so, how?" and i'll have to think of a solution for them, a freaking shortcut, the decision maker. its really a heavy burden to carry, cause if anything goes wrong in the process, we will be wasting each others time. And right now, because other groups has seen our project, i feel as if they know the standard now, and they will obviously do their best to achieve greater and be more creative. So, i'm scratching my head right now for a better idea, or more creative ideas. i do not want to be looked down upon just because im a newbie in this course. (cause in one of the subject there are 3 batches of students in there, sem 1, sem2 and sem3) those in sem 3 are the most seniors so they are always proud and arrogant. they think they own the place u noe. so they were like spying on our project and started analysing our work and saying bullshits about it. you noe what i just think their intimidated by our idea. you have no idea how competitive architecture students are when it comes to design and assignments, we always want to out do each other. in doing so we are not setting limits. We are reaching infinity, grade A!
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